This post is gonna be irritating. Just a warning.

Socially retarded... Most of the time.
Irritated... Now.
Irritating... Now.
Jealous... All the time.
Nervous... around some people.
Tired... and hungry... and sick.
Feeling weird.
Likes attention... Sometimes.
Hates attention... Sometimes.
Has to learn to be precise when I wish for things.
Thinks TMS freestylers and AV are cool.
Not feeling myself... Currently.
Probably annoyed by me now... You are.
Hates dotdotdots... Especially now.
Irritates... Myself.
Not gonna reflect upon camp... Yet.
Mood swings.(night swings, I call 'em, well at least for the one I'm having now)
KPO.

PAULA HAS A DICK?

Anyway, just felt like jumbling all that up. In that manner. If you thought it was annoying, too bad, I warned you already.

Wahlao I very fat sia. So irritating.

MY MATA SEPET WHEN I SMILE! NOOOO! IM 100% ARAB AND MY MATA SEPET. WHAT SHIT IS THIS.

Lol.
I apologize for the lack of sense made.

Ok, future posts shall include;

1. A reflection of 2009 and how I've grown.
2. PSL camp and grad night.
3. TAG.
4. Hot people.
5. Random emotions.

Good-bye, I'm leaving for camp... Tomorrow. ;)

P. A.

Happy Friday the 13th!

Sometimes what I do and think remind me of shows like Scrubs and Greys anatomy. Where there's like a narrator narrating whatever the characters learn at the end of the day. Sometimes it's deliberate, to make myself feel closer to these shows I love. But most of the time it's just me, contemplating life. Though the lessons dont really stick :\ Often a times I feel like blogging about these little lessons I learn on the road. Like one; just move on, you get rejected or you dont get something, just move on and live your life. Most of the time I forget these 'lessons'. Not much of a lesson now, innit, if it doesn't stick and make a big positive impact.
Sometimes I imagine I'm in a show. Like my whole life is a show. Everyones watching. I've talked about this with Jana, who thinks it'll be cool as well, if someone has been documenting our whole lives. It IS scary though. Like this person knows everything about you. But hey, they've seen you you're whole life, they've prolly felt emotionally attached to you and have prolly grown with you as well by this time. I'm just sayin..

Sometimes I miss Croc.

I feel like saying 5 random facts about myself.

1. I taught myself to roller-blade.
2. When I say I love attention, it's not true.
3. When I say I don't love attention, it's not true.
4. I eat like a pig when I'm sad and I don't eat when I'm lost.
5. I think too much.

Sarah:)

I just realised how I know more sec 3s than I do sec 2s. And I was like woah.

Omigodzz I think I'm catching a cold! Gah! I feel feverish. And my class chalet is TOMORROW. Havent packed. Usual me. Yeah.

Havent written what I'm gonna say for Wednesday. I'm bloody ass tired.

Went to Johor yesterday to celebrate Farah B's birthday:) T'was fun, everyone tried to make me sing but I refused, I almost CRIED tau! I mean I can perform infront of hundreds of strangers but not schoolmates or FAMILY. Agh. Scary scary.

I have rather big dreams. I'm not gonna mention them ;) I think I can achieve them, considering my rezki is kinda good. I don't plan. I just live day by day. I let god plan my days. It's amazing. And I know if I deserve what I want and if it's best for me, they can and will be achieved.

I can be very emotional at times. Even because of certain small things people say. Especially if they're sincere. Or very unsincere. Like what happened that day. '_ ____ ___ ___ ____. _ ____ ___ ____ _ ______ ______'. Said with sincerity, it almost made me cry. Suddenly flashes of the days we've had together ran through my mind. How I used to prefer her to someone else. Then was crushed when I found out she disliked me, found me annoying(I was only a kid, of like 10 years of age?). Felt kinda weird whenever we hung out after that. This year hung out like a lot, suddenly grew closer. Till she felt that way. Sigh.
Well that was very brief. I don't wanna let out too much information. You might know it's you. Then again, you might never find this blog. Or maybe you'll see this and not realise it. Don't want you to anyway. I'm not this emotional around most people.

I am able to communicate with people well, often when we talk one-on-one. I realise a lot of people have different facades around different people. I am one of those people. I show different sides of myself to different people. Like, you know the horny side, emotional side, loving side, awkward side, retarded side. Closer people see the whole picture, or maybe part of it. Different things I do appeal to different people. I can spot them, so I do them more often, coz I love friends. I love making friends. I love all my friends too. And sometimes when like a person I'm horny with, a person I'm emotional with and myself go out, it'll get pretty difficult for me to act 'myself', as I know, there are many parts to this thing I call 'myself'. So it's like quite odd to see someone you relate to as something, lets say A acting like B coz, you feel thats not them. Whereas its different on the other side. Get what I mean?
Ah, I gotta continue writing my script. Then pack my bag. Terribly tired.

Well, I don't know either.

Andand Metropolis. Ha.Ha.

Parachutes- Coldplay :)

In a haze, a stormy haze
I'll be round, I'll be loving you, always
Always

Here I am and I'll take my time
Here I am and I'll wait in line, always
always

You know I love coldplay:D

Triple Science eLit! Cant wait for Friday.

I feel fresh. Conclusion: Naps are good.

Very fun song from the movie (500) days of Summer ;D